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 I love to pour all of my heart and pain in these pages. 

It takes such a heavy burden out of my chest.

It makes me feel seen.

Makes my rage feel shared with ghosts of us, you and me. 

All of the versions that made me this dreadful mess. 

I feel lighter after I pour it all out and scream into these pages. 

I feel like I could say anything, like I could say nothing, and that would be enough.